I Just Lost My V*Rg*N*Ty To My Boyfriend, But Now I Wanna Try Other Men

Well I just lost my v*rg*n*ty and now there is nothing to hide, whether I decide to Be Intimate with other men, my boy friend won’t know, , don’t get me wrong, I still love my boyfriend

i just have this crave for sex with his friend who is really hot( with abbs, tatoo and what not), and the friend is already making passes at me.
the other day I was alone with his friend, he had on sleeveless( I could see his chest, his muscular hands, and going down then it’s like I went into a trance) and the whole of my body started trembling, I couldn't stop looking at him and one thing led to another so we kissed, almost got Unclad but my boyfriend got in

anyway he dint suspect anything

I keep having all this crushes and urges to get wild

I feel like I have been locked up in my v*rg*n*ty for too long and now my body just wana explore things, you know like extreme sex, to make up for the lost times, my boy friend isn't giving me you know the whole wild stuff I would want, he is being so gentle cos he thinks am a good girl

but I just want the whole bad boy stuffs done to me, and I can’t really tell him, anyway

what do I do?

Am I a bad person?